Tonight I watched the Blind Side with Lisa.  It was a great movie.  If you haven’t seen it do.  If you have, you know what I’m talking about.  (My inner voice right now sounds so much like Sandra Bullocks character that is frightening me :) 

Well while I was watching it… laughing, smiling, and crying I just missed Chad so much that it hurt.  Yes its been 5 weeks since I’ve seen him and I tell you what I will never go that long with out seeing him again.  Its funny how when you put a little distance between the people who you really love it just makes you want to work that much harder to keep them with you always. 

At the very end of the movie it was very touching and of course I started crying.  Even though Chad wasn’t sitting next to me I instinctively checked to my left as if to catch him crying.  I guess I shouldn’t say crying :) but I know that if he was there with me his eyes would be teary just like mine and we’d probably smile at each other and he’d put his arms around me and we’d both sniffle a little.  Chad’s a good guy.  He always has been and always will be.  I knew from the first time I met him that he loved me.  Way back in 2000 when I was just some 18 year old girl who walked to UVSC every day, took a bus to SLC to babysit, so loud and goofy that I scared most of the boys away. 

A really great quality about Chad is that he never ever makes anyone feel dumb or put down.  On our “first date”  I got really nervous.  We had gone night fishing with our roommates/friends and Chad and I were sitting on this bank and he threw a line out with one of those floater balls… you know half red/half white.  Well being my nervous self I yell out “POKEMON I CHOOSE YOU”  and it was so quiet which made my yell seem that much louder and I looked over at Chad and he just started laughing.  And it was the first time that I had been around a guy I was interested in that I felt safe.  I could be me. 

Chad is my cheerleader.  When I’m having a bad day I turn to him.  This past year has been really rough on me emotionally.  I have dealt with some hard things with some friendships that have caused some heart ache.  I would be laying in bed all curled up and crying and Chad would just hug me and tell me it would be okay and listen to all I had to say.  I asked him one night “Why is this so hard?”  and he said “Because you are growing up.” 

When I’m being a goof ball and lip singing in the mirror or dancing around like I’m in a rap video Chad just stands back and lets me be me.  I try to get him to join in but its true white boys can’t dance.  One time I put some ear phones in and was recording myself sing Jewel music just thinking I sounded so good.  For about 3 hrs one night I sang one song over and over and over.  When I was done I started listening to it.  I SOUNDED AWFUL!  I was literally cringing and so embarrassed because Chad was in the next room the whole time.  I went in and said “Honey Oh my gosh! Why didn’t you stop me!  I sounded awful!”  He just grabbed me around my waist and smiled and said “I thought it sounded great!”  and even if he didn’t totally mean it… that didn’t matter… because he made me feel loved.  And thats what matters.   

This past week I met with some writers here in Utah.  It was really fun and inspired me to keep going.  As soon as I left the restaurant I called Chad.  “Honey I think I can do it.  I really think I can.”  “Okay what do I need to do?  Do you want me to go build a new computer for you to write on??” (My laptop is a real dinosaur) I love that I can share my dreams with Chad, and that he never wants to destroy them even in the slightest degree.   

Well now I’ve gone all sappy on you.  But I guess its because I really miss my husband.  As much as I love being home its not as fun when he’s not with me. 

Happy Mothers Day to all the beautiful women in my life. 

I love my Dallen and Kate.  They mean everything in the world to me.  I love that Dallen is my sweetheart boy and will do anything for me to put a smile on my face and if I’m having a bad day he’ll be the first to hug me and try to cheer me up. 

The other morning I was cooking crepes for him and while he was waiting he was singing ” cause it’s 1…. 2…. 3…. strikes you out….”  and I turned from the stove and sang “at the old ball gaaaaame!”  and his jaw dropped open “MOM! how did you know that!”  and I just laughed and he quickly answered “Oh I know because you’re my mom”   :)

On friday Kate and I were babysitting the twin babies and we were out in the driveway with a scooter and the babies watching from the stroller.  I showed Kate how to scoot along, putting one foot on the scooter and the other to push… and then we took turns going up and down this little incline in the driveway.

When it was Kate’s turn she’d say “Okay now introducing Kate Kendrick!!!” and then push her little foot and go down the little hill and at the bottom I’d clap and holler for her and she’d clasp her hands together under her chin and smile, bat her eyes, wave, and bow.  
Then she’d get back to the top and I said “Now introducing Katelyn Sara!”  and she looked at me all grumpy and said “No mom its KATE KENDRICK” 

I love that little sassy pants!

I love you Mel! Hope you have No Name today :)

I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU!

(even the things we haven’t discussed) 

(are there things we haven’t discussed???)

Thanks for being my best friend :) 

 you are the thelma to my louise

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The line between too much information  and Just the Right amount of information gets very blurry for me

Yesterday chad and I went to Costcotopia for stuff. 

background: Two nights ago at Macy’s I had found the PERFECT swimsuit. High back, high neck… black… cute little black belt detail.  Slimming… kinda… If I held my breath.  the only problem was it was $128.  Dude.  That is BLOOD MONEY.  retailers are just mean. 

So then last night at Costco there was a huge pile of swimsuits for $19.99 and I was like “FINE WORLD! YOU WIN”  so I grabbed a black one and came home.  It was so fugly on me.  So I’m taking it back anyway here’s the real story…

The swimsuit see came on one of those clear plastic bodies

and when I came upstairs to get into bed the clear plastic body was just laying there.  So I had a little practical joke idea. 

Hurry  get in pj’s and got ready for bed and climbed in between the blankets and then put the plastic body on top of me.  It was not very comfortable.  After about 15 minutes I heard Chad downstairs checking the doors, feeding the cat, glass of water…  any day now please

Then it takes another 5 minutes for him to go to the bathroom… brush his teeth… and all the while I’m trying so hard not to move… because anytime i moved the plastic neck would scrape my neck…

So then Chad climbs into bed and reaches over for me… *okay ya’ll all know where he reaches*

 … my shoulder… ;)

“What the???”

HA HA HA HA I just burst out laughing. 

I’m laughing so hard that I can’t even breathe.  

“Why is your ”shoulder” plastic?”  and then he flicks on his light… sees the plastic form… “Ha ha very funny” 

“hee hee hee I know right”

well lets just say he didn’t think it was that funny. *snore snore*

 its going to be a sad day to take “Bianca” back to costco today.  She’s been a real fun part of this family for the less than 24 hours she’s been here.

Tonight chad and I were snuggling and watching TV and since it was valentines day I got to choose what to watch.

the 2010 Olympic pairs figure skating

soooo fun and beautiful

While we were watching this Chinese couple’s program set to some beautifully orchestrated music, Chad starts singing along to the music… I at first was thinking “oh he’s just being silly and making fun of it”  but oddly the words and tune of what he was singing fit perfectly to the orchestrated music.

“How do you know this song?”  I asked him

“It’s the Theme Song to Highlander”

“What’s Highlander?”

and then for the next 10 minutes I got filled in on that there was this scottish guy that could never be killed and could live forever and always stay young…  and the only way to kill him was to chop off his head and the person who chopped off his head absorbed his powers… (kinda how like Dwight Schrute absorbed his twin in utero and now had the power of a full sized man and a fetus)…  oh and it was a show in the 80’s or something. 

the best thing is that he’s really in love with this girl  and she gets all old and haggerty but he doesn’t care because she’s his true love.  *sniff sniff*  Those kind of stories always touch my heart because one day i will be really old and hopefully by then chad will be senile enough and think that he’s the highlander and always love me forever and if anyone tries to kill me he’ll have the strength to smote off their heads. 

so now i give you…. Highlander… now ladies don’t get to turned on at mark :24 

i think I’m going to go dig out Chad’s old machete that he brought back from Brazil and have him sharpen it or swing it around or something 

happy valentines day

love you love you
 

Say Yes to the Dress is one of my new favorite shows on TLC.  Its basically about Brides going to Kleinfelds (a high end wedding dress store) in Manhattan and finding their dream dress.  And I love it love it love it. 

If I could do my wedding day over I would change two things.  I would have had a really nice intimate dinner instead of a reception and I would have had a different dress.  I rented mine (that part was great) but I just wish I could have had the dress of my dreams instead of a $200 rental. 

So if I could redo my dress here’s some dresses that I like…

basically I would like something simple, romantic, and more form fitting.  kindof a vintage look to it. 

So what would you change about your wedding day.  You can comment here or post about it I would love to see. 

saw this pic today and thought I’d share

this morning at the crack of dawn both kids were snuggled in bed with me since dallen was sick and kate’s sibling sense kicked in and realized that wasn’t fair she was alone in her bed so she snuck in too… chad was getting ready for work and I woke up long enough to recognize that he was making his way through all the blankets and pillows to kiss each one of us goodbye.  it was very sweet and it made me feel loved. 

i don’t know who’s broken heart to pray for

and i don’t know what to do

so i pray

that god will just send his love down

like a thousand shooting stars

and one will find its way straight to you